If my blog were a person, I think it would have abandonment issues after the number of times I’ve neglected it. I’ve struggled over and over with this blog’s purpose and what I wanted to get out of posting. Would it be a more personal place to vent and chronicle life? Would it be an attempt to gain a ton of followers by posting about things that were popular but not really important to me? Or would it be a way to keep friends and family updated on the twists and turns of my life? I think that there are several different purposes I could ascribe to blogging, but there is one over-arching motivation. Nothing that we go through is in vain, and every step along the way, hard or beautiful, has a greater purpose that is ultimately for our good. I’ve been learning that there are nuggets of gold hidden in every experience, and depending on how we use them every triumph and struggle can be used to help us learn and grow. If I can share just a few of the nuggets that I’ve been collecting with the people that I love, I think that’s purpose enough. I don’t have any lofty goals for a huge readership or deep, insightful life-changing posts, but I’m sharing me and my life in hopes that it will resonate and/or help you, my dear readers, if only a bit. So here goes. Nugget #1.
I’m going to be transparently honest and say that the last year and a half has been the most difficult period in my entire life. It’s been extremely easy to wallow, feel sorry for myself or to melt into one big ball of stress, and the hardest thing is that in the world’s eyes I might be justified in feeling that way. We’re told that we have this intrinsic right to have everything go our way and that we’re entitled to a struggle-free life. Any assault against us is unfair, unprovoked and not ok. I’m not arguing that we, as children of God, are not entitled to an inheritance of blessing. He wants us to experience prosperity and abundant lives and it is more than ok to expect that and walk in it. But a mindset of entitlement leads to bitterness, resentment and a lack of gratitude for the awesome blessings God gives us each and every day. Yes, there are situations that are painful and hard in my life right now, but any effect they have on me is completely dwarfed by the multitude of gifts that God has given me.
If I focus on those gifts, and choose an attitude of thankfulness it is easy for me to say that this last year and a half has been one of the most wonderful and beautiful periods of my life. I’ve been practicing the art of cultivating gratitude, and I’m not exaggerating when I say that it completely transforms your thoughts and emotions. After a particularly hard day, I start thanking God out loud for the things He’s blessed me with: my life, my parents, my siblings, my gifts and abilities, the fact that I get to marry the most wonderful man I have every met. Without fail, I get a few items down my list and I’m crying and considering myself the luckiest girl in the world. God delights in lavishing upon us every spiritual (and oftentimes physical) blessing, not because we were born with some inherent trait that entitles us to receive, but because He loved us so overwhelmingly that He gave His son so that we could become co-heirs with Christ. All I am is because God loved me, and all I have is because He loves pouring out that love on His children. And that’s something to be thankful for.
What are some things that stir up your thankfulness? Comment, cause I’d love to hear them. (: